How is it that no matter how prepared you are, when you step into the spotlight, it is like the fresh hell of terror? It can start the moments, hours, or days before the event.

It's that situation again. That person or group is present. This conversation or action will trigger my feelings. I'll spiral into my "go-to" emotions. and I'll be back in my misery, again. It takes too much energy and time to climb out of that wheel.